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feotus...

hollow space...

Posted on 2006.05.04 at 22:17
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: give this broken heart away - the beautiful girls
but how can i fill it?

every time i get back up, i get shoved back down.

the universe continues to make the load on my shoulders heavier.

i'm tired of looking on the bright side. tired of searching for the positive.

it is what it is. and i am what i am.

and neither are good.

imagine...

woe...

Posted on 2006.01.06 at 19:36
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: pickapart - john butler trio
i feel helpless in a hopeless situation. looking around i see damage too far gone to be undone, i look within and i see the same thing.

i carry a feeling of isolation.

time...something i have so little of. the last of the time i know as time just as me. time by myself.

it's hard to look forward to the future when you also fear it.

life seems easier when you have a hand to hold. and sometimes even when you're not holding the hand, knowing that the hand is there within reach is a comfort.

i'm looking around and i can't see anyone's hand but my own.


imagine...

sad thoughts...

Posted on 2005.11.10 at 19:22
Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Current Music: gratitude - saritah
i sometimes lay awake at night and wonder what it's like to be loved unconditionally and to love that person back.

i wonder what it would be like to have everything that i think i deserve, have everything i dreamed about for so long.

sometimes i wonder how different my life would be if i made different decisions at those important times of my life when i knew i was changing my path forever.

sometimes i just have to hope and trust that i'm on the right path because my intuition doesn't speak loud enough over my heart for me to hear.

imagine...

gomez...

Posted on 2005.10.26 at 16:58
Current Mood: artisticartistic
We came, we came, we came again
To stem the tide and point the blame
Came back for more
Came back to see what you had in store
Everyone join the line, everyone
Yeah

So you wanna spin the world around?
So you wanna spin the world around?
And anybody else, cut 'em down
So you wanna make catastrophe?
Won't you send it right over to me
I got some time
Everybody running high

The same, the same, the same again
To steal the time and haunt the graves
Just because it's there
Don't mean you see it anywhere
Maybe it's a trick of the light
Maybe, yeah

So you wanna spin the world around?
So you wanna spin the world around?
And anybody else, cut 'em down
So you wanna make catastrophe?
Don't you send it right over to me
I got some time
Everybody come alive
Yeah

So you wanna spin the world around?
So you wanna spin the world around?
And anybody else, bring 'em down
So you wanna make catastrophe?
Don't you send it right over to me
I got some time
Everybody running high

So you wanna spin the world around?
So you wanna spin the world around?
And anybody else, cut 'em down
So you say we haven't turned around?
So you say we haven't turned around?
Just everybody else is going wrong
Going wrong


feotus...
Posted on 2005.10.08 at 15:27
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: water - blue king brown
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love, light and stars...


imagine...

suspicious...

Posted on 2005.09.29 at 09:55
Current Mood: calmcalm
i long for a world were everyone shares, everyone loves, everyone gives without expecting back.

yet when i receive that kind of attention i grow wary.

i'm disappointed that i'm not yet the person i want to be.


feotus...

unspoken...

Posted on 2005.09.28 at 11:37
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: the world has turned and left me here - weezer
i put on a brave face and plastered on a smile. i gave a vibe of being content, sure of myself, happy.

the peace has been elusive. the tears won't stop. i'm scared.

feotus...

precious earth journal...

Posted on 2005.09.26 at 16:51
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: open road song - eve 6
if we do not own the freshness of the air and the sparkle of the water how can you buy them?

i heard the heartbeat of life within my own body. it's become a reality.


tree...

special...

Posted on 2005.09.24 at 08:05
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: greenspandex - xavier rudd
BE the change you want to see in the world

imagine...

love...

Posted on 2005.09.23 at 13:03
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: local god - everclear
there's been magic in my days.


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